25th April 2006

we all know babys go punchy punchy punch... its either an elbow or a knee or a hand or feet thats sticking into painful stomachy areas at the moment... weee... 5 more weeks to go...

30th April 2006

okay i calculated how much time i have left and its actually down to 3 weeks and 3 days... Please dont come out early or decide you want to stay in there.

6th May 2006

down to 2 weeks and 4 days...

10th May 2006 - Tis No Fun Without Friends

im not aloud out of the house for long walks down town anymore ... unless i have to go to the doctors... which means im stuck to walking around in circles in my backyard and trondling along my street... the furthest i think i can go to is the botanical gardens and though i love the gardens tis no fun without friends

yes it is safe to say i am missing people. I saw cass on friday, but thats about it... after that day mum doesnt want me walking around to far... she does have good reason for it though, i mean if im down the street and i start having contractions... what are we to do... meh...

spose ill hve to wait till baby pops out... I WANT IT OUT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

14 days to go

12th May 2006

12 days to go... wow... I'm actually going to become a mummy soon...

14th May 2006 - Won't be Boring For Much Longer

I am feeling so bored now... everything for bubs has been done except for the preparing of the bed/cot which my mum is going to do while me and bubs are recooperating in the hospital.

As boredom sinks deeper and deeper so does the knife in the postmans back... Well do you have any other ideas about how to entertain my never ending, overly imaginative and sometimes scary mind? No? I didn't think so.

Note for Tessa, aka
You know that journal you created, the one about the cockroach and the butterfly, i think that you should perhaps make that a forum topic somewhere. I'm not kidding, i think that you would get some pretty interesting replys.

Anyway back to the topic at hand. Boredom.

I spose that i had better enjoy it while it lasts really. I mean once bubs is born im not really going to have all that much time to myself to even feel bored. Ah well, not long to go now till all forms of boredom ends.

You want to know what scares me the most about this pregnancy? Well even if you don't i'm telling you.

What if something happens during the labour and my baby does, what if its born already dead? I dont think that i would be able to cope with that. Or what if i die during giving birth to bubs. I mean i know its doesnt happen very often anymore, but something still could go wrong you know, i dont think that my mum could cope with something like that.

Even though bubs isnt even born yet, i love him/her, and i really want to be a mother. I'm used to the idea of it all and i love the thought of being the person a little child will run to when its scared of the monster under the bed or has managed to hurt themselves somehow. I love the thought of maybe being able to read stories to them as they fall asleep and i really want to hear their little voice call me 'Mummy'.

Now you all know what scares me the most. people ask me that all the time and all i am ever really able to say is that im scared about the giving birth part. I can never find the words to tell them how i really feel.

Ah well, i shall find out how it all ends up soon im sure, who knows i might just be worrying for no reason at all.

17th May 2006

Doc told me today that there may be a chance that the bubs will be born overdue... Ergh, fun.


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